plagued by lack of motivation, lack of desire to try in physics because i have failed so much, lack of desire to socialize because its the end of the semester and wut how do i make more friends now. confusion with this sort of kind of romance. brainstorming ways to beat this. it will take a lot of work. but i think those little accomplishments really add up. losing 15 lbs, for example, helped. maybe getting more fit would too. putting more effort into dance too. putting more effort into the classes i do excel in too. embracing what i do have. writing. writing. writing. tv. art. happy things. shave ice. random acts of kindness. my friends. my family. reminding myself why my attempts to end my relationship completely have failed (i.e his laugh. his love. the chance to dig deeper). i cannot stop.